There would be days where all of this beauty would mean nothing
There would be daya where the sun would be dark as clouds before the rain pours down….
There would be days where all you have dreamed and envisioned for yourself and future wouldn’t matter….
There would be days when if one more person asks if you’re okay…… YOU’RE NOT
In those moments, you think about quick ways to die
Your favorite TV show becomes 1000 ways to die
Jumping in front of a moving truck is too public, someone might even stop you..
Tying a rope on your neck is too self alarming
You might even die of shock before your breath ceases…..
So, NO
You don’t do that…
“I’ll just drink sniper instead”
It’s faster it’s quick
It’s painful but it’s brief
Or Jumping from the highest floor in your Faculty ;that sounds more like it…
All you need to do is LIFT and then gravity does the rest; Drop Snap ;your neck against the ground, you’re gone
In these moments the thoughts in your head envelope your whole being and they begin to steer your brain like a wheel moving your hands and legs to your seemingly sure end
You tend to think of what people will say when you’re gone
Oh!
How her smile lit every morning sky
How people would want to identify with you because you’re dead…
“we had the same chemistry class together”
“we were members of the same church”
They would even go as far as explaining why you took your life
Depression, A boy, A girl, ‘parents got a divorce’
‘he’s just so stupid
And when they would want to Lament
Oh!! How talented he was…
Oh!! She had such a beautiful voice
I used to even have a crush on her
In those moments, your mind wonders about everything…
One could even call you mad
But God
God is always the answer
To everything,
He’s there
He’s always there
Every f**kin *time*
He’s there when you are drowning
He’s there when you are falling
He’s there when you are dying
All you need to do is call
Call on Him
So, in those days when nothing is beautiful
When nature no longer amuses you
When one would even call you mad
Remember He’s one call away
He’ll rescue you…
He will make you see the beauty in every life
every form
The miracle of every birth, the laughter of every baby…..
Remind yourself daily that you are beautiful you are unique you are rare you are a FORCE OF NATURE
So keep pushing……
And remember SUICIDE does not take the pain away, it only gives it to someone else
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SUICIDE MISSION POETRY 