Suicide

People think suicide is a Yes
So they tell you to say No to suicide
— I think suicide is a maybe
Not enough of a yes, too little of a No
particularly satisfying
because of the uncertainty.

People think suicide is a distasteful option
so they tell you to choose life instead
— I think suicide is nothingness
what’s the worth of life to a person
who has felt everything,
everything but nothing?

People think suicide is a decision
That we should never pray to make
— I think suicide is an amen
acceptance and resolution
People think it is cowardice
I think it’s a kind of bravery
that we choose to see
with closed eyes and minds

I think suicide is everything
Everything but yourself
A voice that tells you, no,
Your own voice telling you
That you are not enough
Not enough of a reason to stay alive

I once mistakenly voiced out loud
“I wish I could die for 2 weeks”
People snapped their hands over their heads
I think someone screamed.
I had just mentioned the Voldemort
in Nigeria’s comical Harry Potter

People think suicide should not be spoken of
I think it’s an important topic
Let us see that it is there
So that it is not sprung upon us
By our own minds
In our own weak moments

I say to myself, I am enough
Enough to live for,
I draw my breaths for me and I fight
Nothing is easy, Life is distasteful
So I choose to be enough for me
Suicide is a maybe but I am enough for me.

© victory wrights