A poem by Maimuna oshogwemoh

I found holy verses in his kiss
He was my bible
I found nature in his lips
The sex was tribal
He brought purpose to my hips
Momma said
Its good to cry, it cleanse the soul
I was just 10
When I was diagnosed with brain cancer
I am so outta control
Nobody knows it
My friends are all addicted to porn
Or boo’d up
How do u explain pain to someone
Who hasn’t felt it
Anxiety dances across my pillow case
Asking stupid questions ;
, where are you going to be in the future
I may not see next week
I just want to be happy
To me happiness is mission impossible
When my thoughts strangle me
What if where I was supposed to be
Is here
What if the love I fought for
Is free
I wonder why I can’t hear my voice
In my dreams
Or run fast
I guess if I knew to tomorrow
I wouldn’t need faith
I guess if I never failed
I wouldn’t need grace
Should I jump
Let’s end it shall we
My life is flashing through my eyes
Goodbye anxiety
Goodbye sadness
U were my companions